He felt asleep right after i shower finish. Had instant noodles again with tv mute. As i watched him sleep, i teared with fear of losing again.

reason was as i picture the perfect moment, it's so perfect that I can't lose him again. I was paranoid because times in the past, the perfect moment never last for days.

I hug him and I cried , YEAH, i wet his shirt and its digusting.

I don't know how to continue from there, ok. then later he went to court early in the morning, his licnese is suspended for 6 months. :)


Then i waited for him since early afternoon, i didnt call him as much as often because i feel that i should wait for his calls instead. Probably he's tired? probably he's working? probbaly he's jsut busy. I learnt to respect all his freedom.


Then slowly waited till night. -________________-


Ok, finally he called. PRETTY LONG THOU but he called... :D


And now, 3 hours ago he said he would come .. now is 12+am.. Sigh. Still waiting.


He will be leaving singapore this sat to dubai for 8 days. Business trip he said. after that he will be leaving for italy for 2 weeks.

IT feels weird that, i have been sticking around with him since the start of this year and suddenly, he's gone.



ANYWAY, i will be so damn free, please ask me out.