why do you make me cry so hard for you all the time?

why do do you always calls me a slut when i was loyal and faithful to you all the time?

why do you always think i was aftering your motney and car whereby i don't mind sitting bus with you or having instant noodles for daily meals?

why do you say i always fuck around when i spent most of my time with you than my parents?

You always make me feel so low self esteem, telling me that girl or this girl is pretty. saying how faat i m or ugly. i always try to make myself pretty for you thou it's hard. buy clothes and cosmatic to make myself look good. make myself smell nice for you but all you do when you get back just sleep. And you didn't even appreciate.

The one sided love is all we had in our relationship.

Think about the amount of promises you broke.

Think about the amount of lies you layered each time when you were exposed.

Think about the words saying how much you love me.

Fancy the childish side of you shows by bitching behind my back, making another girl to prank call me.

if this is all the revenge you want it back on me for leaving you, you have it.

I left you for good.

Simply, you just think for yourself. Whatever happens, you won't listen but instead, you will push all the fault to me.

Fancy u saying I m two timing for things i've never time.

I have never let you down. You in japan, see any girl pretty, shout infront of everyone saying if she's your gf, you will be happy. I kept quiet.

you don't even allow me to talk to any of the tour mates saying they all like fucked up and you went to make friends with them.

I have never done anything to hurt you.

you were the one abusing drugs and screaming at me for no reasons infront of the whole tour group. i kept quiet.

You were the one who start hitting me and curse my parents when i simply asked if you were still on drugs but you denied knewing that's its so obvious .

I have to pack your lagguage for you. EVery morning in japan, i can't even have peace eating my breakfast, i have to rush my breakfast th en rush up to wake up you, instad of appreciating, you scolded me for waking you up. everyday for 1 week.

you don't even let me have peace walk around in japan.

whenever we go out, you just walk infront and left me all the way back.

You're the one who said u wanted hui ling back on the 2nd day of breeak up.

You're the one who said you have a gf and wants to stop contact with me on the 3rd day.

You're the one who said that you wanted to patch with your ex.

You're the one who said u wanna whack me if you see me in zouk.

You hurt me so much, all i wanted to prove by putting his photos up that I could move on. But i couldn't.

you made me quarrel with your friends by trusting their stories then later come telling me it's not true.

you called me a slut when sean called to tell you he fucked me to break us up but then realised it's not true cause he loss to you.

you promise you will work hard and stop drugs but what did you do?

You slept in the office and bought drugs home

You promise your dad you won't speed upteem times, but u crashed his car over and over again and curse him to death when he didn't give u money.

you left the guinea pigs at some deserted house for days and promise to help me bring over but you made me waited for 6 hours and then tell me to go take myself in the middle of the night.

you eat on the bed and throw the mess around, i've to clean up the shit for you.

you always don't bathe and i could smell your massive body odour i kept quiet.

you always make up stories to tell others.

you want attention, i gave you all.

you woouldn't let my contact my guys friends, i stop but yet you contact your gfs and even calls me a bitch behind me.

whenever something happen, you will push the blame to your friends, it's always not yourself.

you took 6 packs of 5 home and LSD, when spotted, you blame to jody but what i realised, it wasn't him.

during school times, i was so stress up, instead of giving me su pport, you went out.

you promise to come back at 12am but your went off till 4am

you promise to fetch me to sc hool and made me waited for 2 hours promising u will be there in 15 mins but instead, 2 hours and i failed my project.

your father and uncle has been stressing me out to keep u at home. i did but you never understand instead, you bitch behind me.

i wrote sweet pill notes for you but you never treasure it and lost it.

you bought me the necklace and tell me it's for me. yet on the other hand, you told your dad and margeret that it's for your mom and when i asked you again infront of margert, you said it's for me and you going to buy another for your mom. after the break up, you asked me back for the gifts.

take it as i lost the battle in the war.

i no longer wanna argue or reason out anything with you because whatever i say, you will go back to square 1 ; it's always never your fault.

I will remember how you hit me till i bleed and push me to the ground and shoot cig at me. I'll remember.

Go on bitching with your friends how fucked up i m. i know myself and i know you. continuing telling your friends to make prank call on me and call me slut or whatever like what you just did because I know myself.

and i have a tag here, look on your right, you can tag and play prank on it. i wouldn't mind.

I felt stupid being affected .

Right now, i'll move on. You could no longer affect me.. nor break my heart again.

you might be really angry seeing all these because i wrote out your secerts.

As for his friends who doesn't know what's going on or what i've been thru might think i m only siding myself to bring him down or whatever calling me a slut. I don't know about it.

he's a nice friend but he's never responsible enough to take up a r/s.

to that girl who prank call, it's ok. Because he told you his side of story and that like what i mentioned, he's always never at fault.

to jody, sorry for mistaken you because i trust the wrong person.

To jerry and kevin tee, thanks for always giving me a chance to speak up for myself and understands.

I guess it's karma that i didn't treasure you in the first place when we're dating. How i ignored your cries wh en i realised you're full of lies.

i love the way u never failed to celebrate our anniversary but sadly not till our 4th one.

I love the way u kiss me to sleep.

i love the way u ran out to get panadols for me and made me finish up the warm water .

i love the way you showered for me when my finger was injured badly and the whole arm hurts.

i like the silly part of you.

i like it when you were so shy u didn't dare to hug me when we are dating and you were perspiring all over.

i miss the time you always end conversation with a ' love you fats'

i miss the time i always amde u wwake up to send me to school and you can't stop rolling on the bed.

i like it when i was drunk crying, you were there hushing me.

but why did you change? why are your negatives hurting me so much ?

I always think the sweet side of you to bring myself to love you more but why are you always pushing me awway..

LASTLY, you said you have 40+ ex gfs that and all of them are damn pretty and you screwed more than half of them and now you're calling me a slut. Thats too much of you.