today was a FUN NIGHT. party from 9pm till 5 am, DOPE!


was partying with derek, baey, mucus(marcus) and mostly his friends. FUCK, it's damn funny when you see derek and friends di siao people. WaHAHHAAHHA. We can even laugh at nothing, ok, no reason and that stupid mucus burned my hand with cig, accidently thou but i m now looking at the blister with temptation to BURST IT. ok. I WONT.



but right till the end when i got home, i msg him, yeah yeah, i said i wont but i was really on the verge of crying. Bascially he's flying to dubai tml for business trip , my dad told me that it's gonna be a long trip so i reminded him to EAT inside the plane. He tend to sleep all the way withohut eating and it's like so bad for his stomach. must wake up eat already then continue sleep, at least much shiok. LOL and that he has to drink lots water and have to applied lip balm. He's got really very dry lips and i always tend to apply lip balm for him before he sleep. Air con room always dry up his lip's moisture.


Although he hates the layer of balm feeling for I always apply for him or either wait till he fall asleep. LOL.


And when i saw what leoiee said, i feel that, probably, its was just me. I mean, all my r/s are screwed up, probably i was just too serious. oh boy, i can't help it. I just want someone to love me the right way, probably i was asking for too much? like a simple outing? or a proper dinner? sweet foam bathe? more responsible? more attention? less being spite?


i don't know. i guess i can't have a r/s for nuts.

it's a long night.