just came back after meeting up with my neighbour. He said he saw melvin driving audi at ubi 1 week ago but i recalled that he alreayd lost his license.

Bah, then suddenly memories of us flashes back at me. When i came back, i look at our babies, thought of the first time, i feel so bored, he bought a guinea pig for me to cheer me up and keep myself occupied whenever he goes out. Vanillia was a baby back then cute and small ad i always put it on the bed with me and watch together when he goes out. Then later get chocolate as a mating buddy for her. hehe.

Seriously man, i can't get over him, it's really tough, i haven't been in a r/s like this . It's like, honeymoon trips. Staying with him24/7. we do almost everything together. Foam bathe, coooking, waking each other up, kicking each other in the morning, kissing with morning breathe, ikea shopping for room, in kimono costume, teasing each other on the plane, sat some stupid scary rides in japan , holding hands whereever we go, farting at each other's face (LOL?????) go food hunting in the middle of the night.


You know, i wanted all these back again but like everyone said, if you get back in a broken r/s, everything will be different morever, melvin is really happy with his life now without me. He's really working very hard and in future, he will even find a better girl whom wouuld be able to love him more than i do. ok, i m really tearing now. this is really stupid. i m just confused. i really love him... i really love.. i really love him........ and i never have the intention of harming or hurting him. i really love him.