few days back was me and mel's supposing 4th ann. stayed up till 10am thought that I could see him but instead, he delivered 50 roses. It's exactly how i wanted it to be. Sweet, but too bad that we could never pass our 4th anniversary. sigh, tearing as i typed that sentence out. ok stupid thou.


Thanks to Derek, Ivan, Baey, who has been there for me all the time when i was really down the past week. Their words and company has put me through all the pain i was getting. esp the day where mel supposed to meet me but then he went to meet his friends in cineleisure instead on the last day before he flew to dubai. that's when i really hate him.

Took advice from them. Yeah, i m only young once and i'll live to it. i won't fucked up my teenage life anymore. I won't let anyone bring my any of my days down anymore.

The words they all said are enough for me to let go of mel. Like, if he loves you, why wouldn't he meet you? what's makes you go back to him after how you've been treated with ignorance? He's always fuck care these and that.. would he bother about you? As older he grew, he will be crowded with girls, can you take it? why does he even hide things for you? etc etc...

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"its just a matter of time before he finds another one more fine"


had fever and really bad cough and sorethroat, everday been meeting up with ivan and derek, FUN! ivan just left for aust, ahhh... gonna miss his craps. He's an cheerful ass and i wanna be like him. watch movies, fantastic 4 and ocean 13, DOPESHIT.

Felix and rap have been nagging me hard to drink more water , so sweet of them. jon has been telling me experience of players, rich people. He used to be a player too but finally he settle down with his really cute gf .


ok. Ytd was fun. Had a hair cut, look like shit but it's ok, new image. went ice skating with brother baey and rayner. DEREk MADE ME FELL AND THERE'S A HUGE BRUISE ON MY LEFT KNEE CAP. SCREAMS. night head down to zouk additional marcus, the ass who burn my hand. met up with joshua, so cute and derek's friends , the other group of friends were dancing with fat chicks. WAH LAU!.... i must grow fatter than. LOL. all guys surrounding the fat chicks. :( i feel sad. DAMN IT.



Ok i m happy, can have my closet removed and made a new bigger closet for more storage. i m happy. :D